Thursday, July 23, 2009


me: "What's going on Lil?"
l: "My shirt is weeeeeeeeeeet! It's all dirty. I need to take it offfff! NOW!"
me: "No big deal, Lily. It'll dry soon."
l: "NO. I don't like it wet! I'm going to my closet to pick out a new CLO."

::appears downstairs wearing a (pink/dirty/too small/way too warm for 103 degrees) shirt

So yeah.... she's quirky. Always thinking... worrying... even about singular versus plural versions of words like clothes, where in her world, a single shirt would equal a clo. That brain never gets a rest.

She just never stops talking these days--- never. Even in her sleep. Which is why we've been getting daily calls from her pediatrician since we took Jack in for his 2 week appointment and mentioned all of this to him. He's been amazing and it looks like we might finally be on the path to helping her become a better sleeper. I hate that she suffers that way.

On the upside, she clearly loves Jack. She'll look at him and tell us "He's adorable!" When it's time to leave the house she'll ask "Is Jack coming?" She's great about grabbing whatever I need and looks out for him wherever she can. Just yesterday when watching me feed him, she told me "He wants to switch to the other side now, Mommy."

But... she's also needed a LOT of extra attention. She doesn't like when certain people hold Jack and uses those moments to get into things she shouldn't. She's had a lot of breakdowns too. She wants to be held by anyone who is willing. His screaming in the car drives her crazy. "Mommy, make him STOP-- he is SO LOUD!" That's especially interesting, since she seems to have lost all volume control. We expected all of this, but it's still hard. I say "this will all pass soon" out loud at least 20 times a day.

We're still getting into our groove as a family but I think we're doing pretty well. I'm still working on figuring out how to balance normal days with marathon nursing, but I know we'll get there. We actually joke that we might leave Jack behind someday he's so quiet and chill. He just fits and I'm pretty hooked.

I think we'll keep him. And her too. :)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Where We're At

Dear Jack,

It's been only a little over a week since you entered the world, but to us it seems like you've been here forever. Your sweet calm nature is exactly what our little family needed and we can't imagine life without you.

Here are some things you're up to at 1 week, 2 days old:

- You're an amazing sleeper. No tight, clenched baby fists... you sleep with your arms raised over your head and legs spread out long. You often wake up with a smile. I found myself panicking when I woke up one night and realized you'd slept over 5 hours. Please keep this up. :)

- You've made nursing easy. I had such a tough time of it with your sister, so I worried a lot about how it would go with you.... Grandma has been here to spend time with Lily while you and I work at things and I'm so glad we've had the snuggle time. It's exactly why I needed her to be here. I'm so happy and feel so good about the way things are going. Even better, you're such a happy baby.

- You're wearing size newborn clothes and still have a little bit of room to grow. We'll find out tomorrow what you weigh-- at the last check-up, you were at 7lbs, 3oz.

- You are so aware of what your sister is up to. The minute you hear her voice, you turn your head to find her.

- You're a superbaby. Never have I seen such a tiny baby able to lift his head the way you do. You rolled over the day after we brought you home and scared us to death. Your determination seems very familiar--- I think you're going to be feisty like Lil.

- You love to be cuddled. You snuggle right up to us and rest your head on your arms.

- You had your first bath over the weekend and didn't make a peep until we took you out. So, so chill...just not when you're naked. I'm okay with that.

- You giggled in your sleep for the first time today. I was trying to balance you on the boppy and get my work done on my laptop at the same time. It was one of the first times I've really felt stressed since you came home... then... I heard "huh, huh, huh," looked down, and saw a huge grin on your face. Made my day. Thanks for that, buddy boy.

Truthfully, we were all nervous about how things would change around here once you arrived, but you sure are making it easy, sweet boy.

We love you and can't wait to see all of the changes-- little and big-- that the coming weeks bring.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Our Little Firecracker

Jackson William
came into the world with a (big!) bang on
July 5, 2009 at 3:52am

7lbs, 11oz and 20 inches long


If ever there was a reminder of how lucky we are to have each other, we had it today. My husband was incredible... everything I needed to get through what was one of the hardest experiences of my life. He never let go of my hand.

Tonight, as I stare at my baby boy, I'm overwhelmed by how blessed I am to have such amazing family and friends. Today was all about that.

Hard to find the words to describe seeing our beautiful daughter hold our beautiful son...

one thing is for sure; Life is good.

Happy Birthday, Jack. We love you.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009


Where did June go?

My mom has been here to keep me and Lil occupied lately.
A really good thing.... otherwise I think I might be a little crazy at this point.
Being pregnant when it's 10000 degrees outside is just wrong.
And hitting 39 weeks after being told that there was no way I'd go past 38 weeks really kind of sucks.
She's helped to keep me off of my feet and able to vent away at the uglies of pregnancy that poor Mike doesn't want to hear about, which has made it all a little more tolerable.
Still, I'm ready, even though the reality of our little 3 becoming 4 is still slowly setting in.

Mike's been working really long, unpredictable hours and I'm so, so happy that the pressure is off of him to be around more so that I'm not spending these long days alone. He is too.

We've been getting a lot of projects done around the house that had been avoided for a long time.
Okay, I haven't, but my mom has. :) Thanks, mom!
The nursery is about 90% finished and I love it. It's exploding blue boyness.
So weird for us after years of pink, pink, pink.

And there have been a lot of other fun Grammy distractions going on too, some of which may have spoiled Lily forever.


She is really picking up on the fact that Jack will be here soon and is so excited... but it's frustrating for her too.
She's waited so long. Lots of diva moments.
Usually over why she can't wear her nightgown/princess costume/ dress that she's worn for 2 days out of the house.
Or because one of those things has been dirtied by a drop of water. Such a girly girl.
Or because she wants a "big bit" instead of a little one.
Ahhhhh.... 2.5.

She's been extra clingy with her favorite people lately.
So lucky to have these good, loving people in her life, especially right now
with such big change coming her way.

(Can you believe him?! Definition of a good kid. She's in love.)

We're just happy that she's so taken with the idea of becoming a big sister. She got a few pointers from Trent when we met his new sister, Olivia

I've known his daddy since before he was born. Our parents were high school buddies and we have pictures just like this of us--- so neat to see our kids together.

Perfect timing to be around such a new baby. She was beautiful! Lil squealed, ooh-ed and ahh-ed all over her. We talked a lot about how Jack would be the same size, make the same noises and would have a lot of the same needs. It was so good for her and thank you Eve and Jennifer for putting on a little shower for us--- so unbelievably sweet and thoughtful of you!

Last week, it was Big Sister prep time.
She decided to pick out Jack's version of "Bout," her favorite stuffed toy ever,
to take to the hospital.

She took this very seriously.
He had to be re=opened and stitched back up to achieve just the right amount of floppiness.

She's very proud of the final result and can't wait to give it to him.

Let's hope it's sometime in the next few days.
Or today.
Today would be good. :)